Never Again

 she is there talking with her ex. my head swayed towards the ground to get my bike. 

when I kick-started

"No prob, I will move with harish", her voice sounded. she did not ask for it, kept her hands on my shoulder stood on the foot support, I managed to hold it still. Moving her face front, her hair tickling my face, she asked "shall we move?".

"yeah...... yeah....are you going to sit?" I trembled.

we started moving, some 100 meters crossed, she hugged me from the back. the impact I made on the break scratched the Tyre for a meter. got down from the bike asking

"Is there a problem?".

"noo...", she said.

"what is the sudden hold is for?.

"just"

"Just...."

"just explains just, do you have a problem?"

"no"

"then cool, start, let's move"

even though it is good sometimes gentlemen knock on the door so I pushed myself an inch front.

She did that again, moved an inch front and hugged. the subconscious procedure repeated,  sudden impact in the break and the scratch lasted for 2 meters.

"what.... what now?", she asked with a wrinkled forehead and teeth held lips.

I can't ask her the same, again, "sorry, just an insect, sorry", I said gently squeezing my right eyes. I got a small hair from my eyelashes, just smiled and blew it saying thank you, because for the past 11 years my wish was to see the girl sitting at my back, I have lost a lot of eyelashes wishing for her, as she taught me this myth. 

I started the bike again, and we moved. at a junction, she said, "take left".

"no it's right", I said.

"you knew the way to my home!!", her surprised eyebrows said that.

"no!!.. no!!.. I just guessed", I shook. 

"haha your guess is opposing my words", she said moving her head up and down and her left hand showing left. the head moving up and down is just an Indian thing.

I took the left thinking she might take an optional way to reach her home because I know the way to her house, whenever I am within a 1-kilometre perimeter to her house, I will cross her house at least twice.

it's not getting better, the way she guided me got as far from her residence. 

"Are you getting the correct route", I asked.

"Ohh, you know everything!!", she overreacted.

"ok... Okie.. no offence!!", I said.

she saw a shop and asked me to buy chocolates. I kept the key on the bike and went to get it. I saw her leaning in front. I returned gave her the chocolates, she started eating them. 

"shall we move?", I asked.

"will you allow me to eat it" she shouted.

"fine....", I replied.

she took almost 15 min to complete a 10rs bar chocolate. as I sat to start the bike, the key was missing, I searched all my pockets, then a picture of her leaning front moved in my head. I asked for her and she threw it towards me, I smiled.

"Why did you smile?", she asked.

"Just...", I smiled.

I just remembered how she used to throw things at me, even when I am sitting next to her. I started the bike, she again hugged me at the back and kept her head on my shoulder. as we moved I had some random memories of her. 

some times later, my shoulder started getting wet. 

"hey!! are you drooling?" I shook my body feeling annoyed. 

"What!!", she started hitting me from the back.

"Nah....ouch...OK... OK... cool", I said.

we laughed, I already crossed her house, but I don't know what, I got away and just took another lengthier road to her house, she knew it.

I moved along a big pond, the cool breeze and the time of sundown made our stay there a bit more, so I took the same road for the 5th time, all the time she just had her head on my shoulder. 

it's already 4 hours we are on the bike, finally, she got up and said, "let's get back, but slower". 

somewhere in our brain, it told us to stay like this for a bit more, a bit more and a bit more.

eventually, we got near her house, she stayed hugging me, closing her eyes. I did not want to say that but I said that "we are here".

she got down, we stood looking at each other, normally people don't talk to others seeing their eyes, but all she saw was my eyes, and I did the same.

she took some steps towards her house, turned back, moved towards me and hugged me from the front, and this time I did the same too because I blew more than 5 thousand eyelashes for almost 11 years now. my eyes were filled, so like hers.

we were happy, our heart enjoyed us being together, and the brain replied "it's easy to say but it's never the same" these 11 years has changed a lot.

I had feelings for her, and I have feelings for her. she had feelings for me, and she has feelings for me. that is why I stayed for five long hours and she, wetting my shoulder crying to live in same five hours.